Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Happy Christmas


So this is Christmas
And what have you done
Another year over
And a new one just begun*

I wandered through college with a guilt complex.  Like many na├»ve students, inspired by a voting voice and new knowledge, I embraced the world’s problems as my own, determined to improve things somehow, even as I failed in family relationships and winced at dateless Saturday nights.

Looking back, it was a crazed mental time, when a skipped meal, prayed over, transported magically to a starving child; when vegetarianism meant one less chicken in the over-crowded coop; and when five spare dollars in my checking account meant more money that Sunday in the offering plate.

I saw need everywhere, a vision I gradually narrowed, or at least focused, lest I went crazy.   Although some of us remain protesters and activists as we age, most concentrate at some point on peace within our own home as opposed to peace on earth.  Despite this age-accompanying cynicism, I still believe that one person’s actions make a difference, and that even a small difference counts.

Children see the world with broad vision.  They love and give without worrying about perception.  “We’re all artists, Ms. Wendy,” explained a young girl recently, as I complimented her on her painting.


Children also see beauty where adults might miss it.  “If you stand here,” said a child, as she held my hand in the Besthoff Sculpture Garden, “the light shines from underneath the trees, just like in Mr. George’s paintings.”

(pictured, The Tree Where I Sat, 2009, 24x30, oil on canvas)


I was a sophomore at Trinity University in San Antonio, Texas when I met Gladys at the H.E.B.  She struggled with her cane and over-sized handbag as she loaded her groceries into the trunk of a cab while the driver sat helpless, rolling his eyes with impatience. 

“Where do you live?” I asked.

“Alamo Heights,” 

...she replied, referring to the old and, were this New Orleans, ‘uptown’ nearby neighborhood. 

She trusted me, and I gave her a ride to a Tudor-style house, classic and cracking on the outside, decaying and 1950s within. 

I recognized the old-lady smell, the one that comes from piles of junk mail and dusty lace tablecloths, from floral hand cream and moldy wallpaper, from warmed leftovers and stale coffee.  Except for a tic-toc, the house was deadly quiet, as though no one disturbed its air with laughter or speech in years.

Gladys looked like Miss Havisham, and her home, although not quite Satis House, sat neglected and lonely.  We made a date.

(pictured, The Shadows of New Iberia, 1969, 16x20, oil on canvas)


That Friday, I fetched Gladys for lunch.  She wore her vintage Sunday best to the Mexican cantina (paid for with an advance from my job at the school auditorium) and afterwards served me tea from her floral Windsor china, as we made small talk on a plastic-covered faded blue sofa.

As I recall those days, it’s the silence that screams loudest in my memories, broken only by the metered sound of the old clock and Gladys’s hesitant answers to my predictable questions:

Tell me about your husband.  What is the name of this china pattern?  Shall I refill your tea?

We repeated this visit every Friday for more than a year, eventually expanding our afternoons to include museums, the Alamo, and Olmos Pharmacy (for chocolate malts).  Along with my peer tutor class, we decorated a Christmas tree, her first in many years.  Holiday music filled the house from a student’s boom box.

(pictured, Tree Topper, 2000, 20x16, silkscreen)


In January of my junior year, I joined a study-abroad program in Vienna, Austria.   Gladys protested, but I left her anyway, and two months later she died.

The following year I returned from Europe, changed but still -- perhaps more -- guilty.  The modern world seemed incongruous with my intense journey through Art History.  Without Gladys, I sought diversions.  I volunteered at the local A.I.D.S. clinic.  One by one, scared young men (because honestly – they were all scared young men) dropped in for testing.  Within weeks I answered the A.I.D.S. suicide hotline, forwarded to my college apartment’s phone on Monday nights.

I was an unqualified, healthy, heterosexual twenty-one year old girl.  But it was the 1980s, and young gay men died faster than counselors were trained.  People feared the infection, and volunteers were scarce.  My mother worried, correctly and on several levels, that I didn’t know what I was doing.  But this was my protest, my creed, and in my mind, I had no choice.

We all remember when we were young and set out to change the world.  Maybe you held a picket sign, chained yourself to a tree, or delivered Meals on Wheels.  Maybe you still look at the world in this way, out to make a difference.

My sister and I learned this vision from our mother.  Despite barely covering the weekend’s hot checks with Monday’s paycheck, she sent money every month, along with our letters, to Ernik Tukiman in Indonesia, a child matched to our family by World Vision.

(Thirty-five years later, Ernik’s photograph still hangs on our Christmas tree).


I asked George Rodrigue about those years in his own life, and his answer surprised me:

“All I wanted was to get to art school.”

His focus paid off, and he fulfilled that dream and more, supporting his family with his art by his mid-twenties.  George’s generosity of time and money kicked in later, first in small ways in his Lafayette community, and later with large-scale projects for the Boy Scouts of America, the University of Louisiana at Lafayette, the Red Cross following 9/11, the International Child Art Foundation, humanitarian and arts-related relief following Hurricane Katrina, and countless small-town projects involving festival posters, student lectures and more.

Today, through the George Rodrigue Foundation of the Arts (GRFA), these efforts are near full-time, with programs devoted to the arts and education.


At one point, we all realize that the joy of giving cannot match the weight of need.  Even through GRFA, it is impossible for George to reach every school, anymore than I could befriend every lonely old lady, or my mother feed every child.  But does it mean we shouldn’t try?

And so this is Christmas
I hope you have fun
The near and the dear one
The old and the young*

Wishing you and yours a joyous, giving holiday-

Wendy


-also this week:  "Highlights of a Blogging Year" - your favorites and mine from Gambit's Blog of New Orleans, linked here

-for more paintings, photographs, and discussion, please join me on facebook

*John Lennon and Yoko Ono, "Happy Christmas (War is Over)," 1971



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19 comments:

  1. I love this post. I remember how sad you were about Gladys, and when Sally Struthers came on the TV begging us to help feed the children of Indonesia. Simple kindnesses can make a huge difference each and everyday. A kind word and a smile go a long way. You never know when someone might need one.

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  2. Beautiful Wendy. Once again you brought tears to my eyes. Now I have to go redo my mascara.

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  3. This is such a great insight into George's life and fiber. Thank you, Windy

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  4. Thank you for the comments, everyone. Tis the season!

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  5. Wendy, as always I enjoy your writing--Louisiana Christmas 1950 brought back memories--I was 7. The sparse tree, the huge lights, the silver tinsel, and the beautiful ornaments (wish my mother had kept them also)! It was a different time . . .

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  6. Wendy, I don't recall the child y'all adopted, but what I can remember from when I knew you and your sister as little girls, is how kind and loving you have always been, and everything you do and write as an adult reflects these qualities. I'm so happy to have found your blogs and to be able to read your musings, and to bask in the glow of the amazing person that you are. The holiday season is a stressful time, but taking the time to help others, even in small ways, is balm to the soul. And I seriously doubt that the kindnesses you have shown to others is entirely a reflection of guilt - we can see in another person's eyes when that person truly cares about others. And, as you say, even though we learn that we can't help or save everyone, we reach an accommodation with ourselves to do what we can and focus on small, everyday kindnesses. I also recall the love and glee with which your mom decorated packages and your home (huge, beautiful, salmom-colored poinsettias). Here's hoping you and your family have a healthy, loving holiday season. LOL

    P.S. What has made me laugh is remembering bmxmom jumping around on one foot and repeating "la toilette!" :-)

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  7. Great memories, Rita. Thank you, With love to you and yours this holiday season and always-

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  8. Warm and wonderful article. Thank you for the so many really important reminders it contains, especially at this time of the year. Your beautiful relationship with Gladys reminds me of John Prines haunting song, "Hello in there." I have a soft spot for our treasured elders even as I more towards that status myself. Your Foundation work will be planted forever in the hearts and minds of the children you inspire even as they move toward their treasured old age. It will be remembered and passed along when we are long gone. Thank you! Because many could do something similiar but don't. Thank you.

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    1. Thank you, Anon. In truth, your comments left me a bit weepy. Happy Holidays to you and yours- Wendy

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    2. Now I know deeply, fully, why I need my granddaughter to walk in your world. If she's ever going to see pure goodness and kindness, it will be in watching "Mr. and Mrs. Rodrigue" just being themselves. I can't wait for Sunday, hoping she'll become a little bit Wendified.

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    3. Oh Patty. YOU are my idol. Can't wait to meet your granddaughter!

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  9. You are such a dear person and your writings/musings, are a precious gift! I have been even more enlightened by reading your words!
    Merry Christmas!
    Freda

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    1. Always wonderful to hear from you, Freda. Hope to see more of you in 2013. All the best for a beautiful holiday!

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  10. Last Sat. I went with My Mardi Gras float (Krewe Of Centaur-Shreveport) to the NW Louisiana Vets Home to deliver gifts, cookies and some holiday cheer. What a wonderful home this place is. But we all left inspired and thankful to those men and women who gave so much to us. May your family have a blessed holiday and a safe healthy New Year.

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    1. What a wonderful story, Grandma Sandy. You definitely have the holiday spirit! All the best to you and yours for a joyous season-

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  11. I loved your story about Gladys....I had a Gladys also in my life here in San Antonio. She was such a dear and we loved each other so much. Christmas always brings sweet memories of the people we loved and not with us any longer. I enjoy your writings and often they make me cry.....a pleasant cry.
    Merry Christmas

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    1. Merry Christmas, Anon. Thank you for writing in and sharing. Peace and goodwill to you and yours-

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    2. hanks so much for sharing again Wendy. I guess I missed the post last year because of chaos and mayhem in getting ready to enjoy the holidays. John and I love you and George and hope to catch up with you soon. Karen and John Bradshaw

      PS: Keep writing - It's great to be amused by the muse.

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  12. Beautiful, my friend! Happy New Year!

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